why is it so hard

Why is it so hard to workout. It is a good thing to do but I just don't have the will to do it. I want to do it but I just don't. I need to get my mind focused on a goal and just quit being lazy. I really enjoy the way I feel when I work out.... so any suggestions to help me get motivated to stay focused and work out every day? I want to feel better and just be in good shape!

4 days in a row

I have worked out for 4 mornings in a row.  Just a little bit every morning but better than nothing.  I am still not feeling better but not any worse.  My husband says I need to drink more water.  I don't know why I find it so hard to drink water.  It should be simple but I just never seem to be able to drink very much in a day.

Day 1 - better me.

I had a pretty blah weekend.  I ached all over and felt pretty bad all weekend but I got some cleaning done - not at all what I had on my to do list but at least it was something.  The roomba got a good workout.  Despite feeling like crap even this morning - I forced myself up and worked out on the EFX.  Only a few minutes but better than nothing -right?  I forgot how good it feels to get the heart going in the morning.  Yeah me!  

Starting Monday....

Starting Monday I am going to wake up early and start working out. I am always tired so maybe working out will help me feel better.   

just a feeling...

I can't get my Aunt off my mind today.  She has Alzheimer's disease and is living in a nursing home.  She can't communicate with us anymore and most times can be found in the fetal position in the bed.  I haven't gone to see her in a while.  I really don't know what to do.  When anyone goes to visit all she ends up doing is crying the entire time and the doctor even said less visits are better because they interfere with her routine.  I feel if I go see her I am just doing it for myself. But am I really? I mean how does the doctor really know that she is not benefiting from the visits. I mean I can see that it upsets her but does it upset her more to be ignored like she no longer exist.  It upsets me to see her the way she is.  This woman was the picture of health.  She really took care of herself and was always full of energy and life.  To see her so frail and to not be able to communicate hurts me so bad.  I know she would not want to be living like this - if you can even call it living- more like existing.  I always leave crying which I know has caused me to, in my mind, decide it is better for HER to not visit her.   But is it?

This decision is very heavy on my heart and I just can't get her out of my thoughts. Do you ever feel like that people enter your mind because it is God's way of telling you they need you?  I think I need to go see her.